I started my website so occasionally I could post what I am feeling or seeing (admittedly I haven't been very good at that recently!) but mainly because I really believe in the message of the Father's love and of coming into the revelation as His Sons and Daughters. Far from a "wooly lovey-dovey" ministry, what is taught is that love is tangible "stuff" with the power to set people free. The website also became a platform to advertise conferences I put together with people from Fatherheart Ministries and during Covid was invaluable for letting people know about the Zoom calls I was hosting. As speakers within the ministry were not traveling and people were hungry to hear more of this message, but also because isolated people needed community, I decided to have a Zoom meeting once a week and invite a speaker from the ministry or occasionally other speakers such as Baxter Kruger and Wayne Jacobsen, both who have a desire for the message of the love of the Father to reach as many people as possible. The meetings went to once a fortnight and then once a month as the speakers started traveling or speaking on other platforms again. What was amazing about the whole experience for me was that we had people from all over the world joining our Zooms and I got to meet people who I never would have got to meet in the flesh. People familiar with the Fatherheart teaching would invite others so new people were hearing the message all the time. And that has always been my desire, I am not a teacher or prophet but I love people and believe in this revelation of the Father's love. There was some amazing teaching and prophetic words spoken during those times. Just before Christmas 2021 I decided to stop the Zooms with speakers but there was a core group that had been with me since the beginning, and who I now proudly call family, who wanted to continue meeting. We decided we would do book studies on books by "Christian" authors and again the family has grown. We will continue to meet as long as there is a desire for it.
When my son set up the website for me he suddenly said "what are you going to call it?" In an instance I said Fatherheart Journey. I didn't have time to think why but I believe the Holy Spirit was saying it is because I am journeying into the heart of the Father and through a process of healing and redemption I am allowing Him to journey into my heart. And, of course, our journey with Father, Son and Holy Spirit is ongoing. It will never end, until we see Him face to face, but maybe even then there will be more adventures to be had! However, as often happens with journeys we come to a crossroad or maybe a branch off the road we're on and then we have to make a decision. We are taught that to follow Jesus we should take the narrow path but how do we know which path that is? It can seem that if you are part of a large organisation (whether that is what they call it or not) then it needs to be a pretty broad road to carry everyone. So what does the narrow path mean? "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." Matthew 7:12-14.
Wayne Jacobsen had a conversation with a friend on his podcast in December 2020 who had been on a journey with Father for several years but had vowed not to tell anyone about his experiences until he started understanding them himself. Instead, as a doctor, every time he put his stethoscope in his ears (up to 30 times a day) it would prompt him to tune into God and open his heart to Him. One of the visions he had at this time was Jesus leading him into a pool of gold which was pure love. Another was repeated quite often. He was taken to a fairground but there was a gate in front of it and a path off to the other side of the gate. He could hear all the exciting things going on behind the gate and Jesus told him he could go through it but what He had for him on the narrow road would be so much more fulfilling. After many months he decided to choose the narrow path (although he said it was not easy) and was led into the pool of golden love. That to me is what is at the end of the narrow road, PURE LOVE. Through his experience this man discovered that his heart gradually changed and now he is able to love others freely, those who have wronged him, those he was prejudiced over and even those who had done really evil things in the eyes of the law. James Jordan has also spoken about this recently, that when we all learn to love as the Father loves then the world will be healed. To love is an experiential thing, a relational thing because God is relational. As we experience Him loving us by giving Him our time and attention then His love will enter into our very being and overflow to others. It can be a tough journey. There will be obstacles on the way, we may have to discern between true and false teaching, brambles may grow up around us and try and stifle the truth....and it is at times like this that I want nothing more than to walk with my blessed Father, Son & Holy Sprit, to draw closer to them, relate to them and experience whatever they have for me on that narrow path.
The end line is I am struggling with all forms of "Christian" organisations, ministries and movements. I have discovered wherever man is involved eventually people will get hurt. I believe totally in fellowship and community and accept that in all communities there are falling outs, so I don't know what the answer is. As we head into Holy Week, which I love, from reflecting on Maundy Thursday what is to come, to what has been, to what happened on Easter Sunday and it's meaning, I think of the narrow path Jesus took as he lived on this earth and the path taken carrying the cross through the streets of Jerusalem. Jesus told us it wouldn't be easy. So I shall continue on the journey, enjoying the adventure with all it's ups and downs, and keep asking which path to take, knowing if I decide on the wrong one I am still the beloved daughter of the Father and if I put my trust in Him He can open other paths for me.
Have a Blessed Easter. " Later, knowing that all was now completed, and so that the Scripture would be fulfilled, Jesus said "I am thirsty". A jar of wine vinegar was there, so they soaked a sponge in it, put the sponge on a stalk of the hyssop plant, and lifted it to Jesus' lips. When He had received the drink, Jesus said, "IT IS FINISHED!" With that He bowed His head and gave up His spirit." Amen!
